LOL! So basically your a horny bugger hehe

Love it xxx

yay!!!

my names Amanda too

much love Amanda xxx

aww im so glad ur happy huni

and would you mind sending me a pic

i'd love to see the tan

much love Amanda xxx

Yes! Fastiing. Love it.=) I love tan too.. but I dont tan, instead i take the FAKE option=) yay fake! wish i could fake skinnyness!!

Uh ate nothin so far today bt its only like 5pm!

woo im finished school.. summer together=no food!

i love summer.

Keep goin girl.. love empty, u can do it!

Support&Love, Chloe xxxxxxxxx

[ObsessiveLovage]

hey girl!

I gained exactly 5lbs too.

Sucks.

Depression.

Side Effects=Weak, Tired, Hunger.

I can deal with em all... wana fat toegther? and burn that damn 5lbs?

Love&Support,chloe xxxxxxxxxx

hows it going??

Lovess

Hellarockstar!

huni i know how you feel

fasting for the three days wont really do any harm

perhaps some coldness, lightheadedness

or fainting

KEEP THINKING ABOUT THOSE JEANS!!!

YOU WILL BE THIN!!!

stay strong

much love Amanda xxx

Hey,

I always say, whats the point in hanging over the past

just look forward and be more determined.

and fast for 3 days?

well thats pretty easy for me, but if you havent done it before you'll probably get tired

so a good thing to do is drink lots of low calorie caffine and stuff.

i have these tablets i take which give me energy.

anyway there isn't a chance you'll die lol.

I'm here if you need me. :)

Lovess

Hellarockstar!

You sent me a comment know heres a joke for you.

Q. What did the teddybear say when she herd her boyfriend was 2 timing her?

A. Get stuffed

ha ha ha.

tell your friends about if they send me a joke i will send one back.

Cheesey xxx

im all for these ways of getting thin.

BUT not cotton wool because as it churns in the stomach (lovely image i know haha) it turns into string and slices your intestine.

thanks for adding me to your faves i really appreciate it

well, your BMI is basically  your weight times your height squared

here are some good calculators:

http://www.nhlbisupport.com/bmi/

http://www.mayoclinic.com/health/bmi-calculator/NU00597

And some charts:

http://www.consumer.gov/weightloss/bmi.htm

http://www.whathealth.com/bmi/chart-imperial.html

you should be able to work out your BMI from these

if you can't get back to me :)

much love Amanda xxx

[childofthecherry]

Aww huni your doing so well

please dont be in a bad mood

stay strong

much love Amanda xxx

Really haha? I'd lie if i said me too.

When I purge (or try to) it feels so weird cuz ur fingers touch all these random bits! it sick.

Rather purge than be fat though, or eat dirt! Ewwwie.. its gross.

Stay strong. If ya eat nothing u dnt have to purge OR eat cotton wool!! wooooooooo

Love&Support, Chloe xxxxxxxxx

well, iv heard about the eating paper and cotton thing before

but never dirt or baby powder

to me that sounds kinda crazy

much love Amanda xxx

Wow !

just...Wow !

Dirt??...Cotton wool??
Lmao.

That seems ridiculas!...

I actually wanna go eat some cotton wool now though!...ahhhhhhh...no i'm resisting!
Lmao.

OMGod that's the problem with programs like that.
See they are trying to draw attention to the fact that
these girls are sick by doing this stuff
and then some girl watching it is getting idea's...Lmao...

Lots of Lo<3
Sebby xoxo

ewww dirt! ru for serious? thats disgusting|! lol...

and cotton wool! surely that has fat init.. hmm i kinda like the syringe idea but its realllllly scary!!

I added you to my faves too btw=)

I know. I HATE gaining. I HATE food more though!

Love&Support, Chloe xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

I sooo know how you feel. Im like hungry which is ulllllltra retarded! y the feck am I hungry?? I have no clue... when you eat again it just ruins everything. It really realllly sucks.

Hope ya didnt gain 5lbs, but if ya did its motivation right?=)

xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

meh i so feel the same

:(

cheer up.

it can only get better!

Lovess

Hellarockstar!

hey,

yeah i'm good.

not been on for a while, read my entry and you'll find out why.

but yeah, gums great, and i'm glad to know your keeping strong

because, thats the main thing, keeping strong.

Anyway, don't be a stranger.

Lovess

Hellarockstar!

I dont talk to him much really only when i go to visit as i dnt live that close to him  i go visit hes mum coz when i lived with her she was like a mum to me, i lost my mum when i was 7 so i think the world of hes mum i see her like a mum shes brilliant, id never do anything to Cs relationship as that wud b spiteful im not like that i just hope 1 day wel maybe get bk together im not counting on it but who knows wel see, i shud b going to see them tomoroow actually.

If u dnt like working out maybe take up dancing or something just as long as u r doing some sort of excercise its cool  xx

yeah, i was when i first started which was like a month ago,
and just, you know how you think aw man this isn't worth it for that split second,
then the next thing you know you've eaten something you shouldn't?
but saying that i got really back on track today
going for a walk in a bit so should burn quite a few of the cals off.
:D
xo.

lucky you  and congrats on the 100 cal
i can only do that if i'm fully motivated, which i'm not these days
nevermind
xo.

Your are joking..Size 0 is like brill, but keep going if you must just know people like me look up to you. Be proud

Love&Support Chloe xxxxxxxx

Wow! you were a size 0! I hate you.. so jealous.. good luck. You are AMAZING girl.

 WillPower- Love&Support Chloe xxxxxxxxx

I used to have a lil book too with pictures and things in it i  still have it but iv not got it out for over a year. When i starved for upto 10days id not lose loads coz to b honest there wasnt much more to lose as i was really skinny but when i first started starving i cud lose upto 4lbs a week, id run up n down the stairs as many times as poss my family thought i was mad lol.  play football that burns quite a few cals n when i was hungry id drink tea n coffee but mainly tea.

I realise now that it was stupid to go bout it the way i did but once it has a hold of u nothing seems too dangerous as long as i got to my target w8, even when i got to my target w8 it still wasnt enuf. When i was 15 i wieghed 13stone but in 9 mnths id lost 5 stone. I always told mysaelf id stop when i got to 9 stone but when i did i thought id try for 8 n it just never stopped i went down to 7stn 6lbs i was pretty skinny. At the moment im bout 8stone 3lbs so i havnt put on too much w8 but i look alot healthier.

U shud eat but i find it easier if i write out the day before what im gonna eat that way im more than likley to stick to a healthier diet but i do have slip ups now n then. Do u have ne tips luv chloe xx

Wow i cnt believe u only eat 80-100 cals a day. At the moment i dont think i can do that well maybe i can i used to starve myself for upto 10 days at a time then id eat like a sandwhich then throw it up n start all over again but that was when my anorexia was really bad its got alot better over the las year or so.

But iv been gettin really paranoid bout what i eat again n it plays on my mind alot. I remember i had so much confidence when i wasnt eating i got this real buzz coz i knew i cud do it n no1 else who i knew wasnt able to, id watch them eat and think how cud u eat that. Maybe i shud cut bk my cals some more i dnt know i just dnt wanna go bk down that road again. Its not good that im making myself sick bt i just have to get rid of the feeling of being full i dnt do it all the time tho. What motivates u to stick to only 100cals a day and what things do u eat luv chloe.

iv added u to my favs if thats ok xx

Thankyou !

Congrats on the purge though! I'm sooo jealous...i can't do it...i'm kinda scared to try for more than a minute though so i guess thats the problem ...

x

I lost 3 more lbs !

I'm so proud of me too...amd i haven't eaten anything today either...

When i stay home from school i don't tend to eat as much as i would if i was in school...isn't that funny?? coz at home i can eat whatever i want when i want...in school i have to wait untill break or lunch and then there's only crap to eat  (L)...

x

powerful poem.

stay strong and well done for the pound lost.

Lovess

Hellarockstar!

aw babe :(
they are just worried. give them time
legs: me too.. honeslty i think they are fat, and out of poportion. and i do care but i cant be bothered.
stomach: everyones stomach looks bad when they look at it, my friend is tiny and says she looks fat. and really most of it is healthy..
people that judge: are fakes
food: food is just depressing.. after like a few bites it makes me feel fat. but i learnt that its not that, its jsut your stomach squashing your food :PP
lazt and cant workout: pft me too. to much to much work...but if you really want to loose weight you need to eat. so then you can exersise. stupid hey? but yeahh
health teachers: really yours cant be worse than mine. mine is a stupid asian retard guy that stinks all the time and yells too much.
ignorent comments: i hva enoo idea what that is :p sorry if i make ignorent comments

darling, dont hurt yourself over food and being skinny.
girls with curves are gorgeous to the max. wayy more than tiny anerexic girls :P
just eat healthy and excersise,
thats what im trying to do.
hopefully it works :PP im so lazzy

gah i missed out one of the points....

• I HATE that i am so lazy and wouldnt work out. - lol i NEVER EVER work out. You probably burn enough within the day.... i find it easy to get my ipod or whatever and dance for a bit...i can actually say i have never done a sit up during trying to be thin, and it doesn't effect me...

Lovess

Hellarockstar!

Hun, at the end of the day, your going to be the skinny one.

You say you hate all these things today....

turn them round. Look i'll do it for you.

**:Things i hate today:**

• HATE my legs - think how much skinner your going to be than everyone else.
• HATE my stomach - think of this when you go to put food in your mouth, look at your stomoch.
• HATE my arms - look at your arms and then a someone who has thinner arms than you, surely you want to be skinner than them.
• HATE people that think they can judge me - judge them back in your own brain make them seem weak and mercyfull.
• HATE food - good, so why the hell shovel calories and FAT into your mouth?
• HATE not being able to talk to people about it - your here, EVERYONE is here for you to talk about it to.
• HATE that am so lazy and wouldnt work out
• HATE it when people eat infront of me - i LIKE it when people eat infront of me, and when they offer it me, i look at my wrist, and i think OH MY GOD what am i DOING, look at what they are doing to themselves shoving dirty FAT FAT calories in their mouth, think of the horrible feeling of being guilty and FULL.
• HATE health teachers - lol i have no alternative for health teachers, just leave them to babble on thinking they are right, but when you skinner and much more active, just laugh at them....
• HATE ignorint comments - Ignorant comments? Thats people trying to put you down because they are JELOUS of your strength and determination.

You'll do this.

We ALL will.

I hope i've helped, and i don't want you to think no one is here to talk to, we ALL are and letting people in your day to day life know will only make things worse, and they will ruin it ALL even if they think they are helping you, honestly i've given in and told people. I ended up in hospital....

Lovess

Hellarockstar!

My email is c.erskine58@hotmail.com u must find it really hard with the eating thing i know i did it controlls everything u do. When u dont feel ready for help and peole go on and on at u it can be frustrating lol but if they aint going thru it themselves they cant understand how u feel they can only guess and still theyre not even close.

thanks for adding me, and yeah i know how hard it can be not to be able to talk to anyone

i mean last time i did it which was like 9 months ago, i had no one or nothing, i lasted 5 months and people got worried, i went into hospital and i had mental problems and everything

because i felt so alone.

this site really does help. Some people might just think we give tips to eachother on how to be 'anorexic' but really, its so much more than that. I mean half the people on here would turn total mental if they couldn't come on here and talk to others.

so don't feel alone, there is alot of people here that can help you, and the people that you live around and don't know about it, just keep it that way, they wouldn't understand, honestly, telling them is possibly the worst thing you could do.

stay strong and keep in touch

Lovess

Hellarockstar

hey,

there is no point on getting yourself upset about it and what not.

i mean, you can't turn back time, just promise yourself again.

it can be SO SO hard, but just remind yourself when you go near food or get offered it...

i mean you work in an ice cream place, thats just like shoving calories in your face, so you are strong, for being able to do that. I know i couldn't.

Also by eating at the weekend you metabolism would of rised so not eating now will make you lose more weight. :)

anyway, i'm here if you want to talk or ask me anything.

Stay strong

Loves

Hellarockstar

You should try it its really fun, i was scared at first but its a really good way to get stress out too!

xo.

I noticed that there is a lot of comments about how you should eat and how your bady will only get rid of the good stuff (muscle) before the fat. It is true. I recommend not fasting all the time. Try the ABC (Ana Boot Camp) Diet [LINK], it's an Ana's bestfriend. I tried to use it, but there where complications (food. Anyways, have a look, good luck and stray strong!

Isabis <Something Beautiful>

The body doesn't make new fat, it stores the fat that is already there and starts to break down the muscle and use it for energy instead.  Trust me, the research is all out there.  That's why anorexia kills, not because the people get too skinny, or lose too much fat, but because the body starts to break down muscles like the heart.  You may lose a few pounds at first when you fast, but your body will stop that as soon as it can, because it thinks you are living somewhere where food isn't available, and it will try to conserve all the energy it can.  Again, I'm not trying to sound like your dad, I've just known too many people who have life-time health problems because they starved themselves, or were bulemic and purged all the time.  If you want to look good, work out, eat about 10 calories per day per pound you want to weigh (if you're shooting for 120, say, you should eat 1200 calories a day), watch the fat and sugars, and you'll be looking good in no time.  (which, honestly, you probably already do.  from my experience, most girls and women who starve themselves are already too thin anyway).  Feel free to ignore any of this, again, I'm not your dad, just someone who's lived long enough to see where this is headed, and would feel guilty if I didn't try to do something to prevent it.